broken.

someone once told me.
u are a person who likes to be in control.
u like things to work out as planned.
u are a perfectionist when it comes to your life.
u hate to feel helpless.

so maybe thats the reason behind all of this.

nothing is in my hands right now.
screw all the expectations about coming back.

cant talk to my parents.
studies like fuck.
the 3 most impt people in my life right now:
one is not talking to me,
one is too far away,
one is feeling down and i cant do anything to help her.

maybe im being too hard on myself nowadays.
but nothing is going right.

/sayang/smug/angry/whack/sob/wail.

i wanted to get away.
but everything is coming back.
get me away. to neverland /pls